miraculous flower
我所提交的作品《奇愈之花》是我用艺术来疗愈自己、最终唤醒自我之爱的呈现。
在新冠疫情爆发的这两年里，我经历了一些让人难过的事情，失控的情绪和可怕的噩梦缠绕着我，我就像一只失去平衡的呆滞木偶一般。但是我庆幸我还有艺术，还有绘画陪伴着我。
这幅画作所表达的是：想象中的自我在尽力通过手中的提线来矫正我歪斜的内心和身体，在这个过程中，我和潜意识当中的自己对话，试图抚平失去控制的心态，也试图唤醒停止工作的大脑和内脏。最终通过不懈的坚持与努力，我的体内逐渐开出五颜六色的花朵，左边原本垂头丧气的小木偶（代表曾经的自我）也蜕变成了右边长出翅膀、头戴王冠的小木偶（代表全新的自我），并且右边的小木偶形状的“我”举起来一颗被治愈的“心脏”，这颗心脏也长出枝桠，绽放出漂亮的蓝色玫瑰。
创作期间，其他艺术形式诸如音乐，也给了我很大的帮助，我也尽可能将我对于音乐的感受以及我所听到的音乐的节奏和色彩画出来。（我想你们应该可以从《奇愈之花》中看出音乐的节奏是轻快的、爵士，迷幻的）
这次的创作历程让我有了全新的感悟，我通过绘画了解自己、感受自己，寻找到让自我成长的平衡点，我想这也是我一点点治愈自己、给自己奉献“爱”的证据。
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The work I submitted, “The Flower of Wonderful Healing”, is a presentation of my use of art to heal myself and finally awaken my love for myself.
In the two years since the outbreak of the new crown epidemic, I have experienced some sad things. Out of control emotions and terrible nightmares haunt me like a sluggish puppet out of balance. But I am glad that I still have art and painting to accompany me.
What this painting expresses is: the imaginary self is trying to correct my crooked heart and body through the lifting thread in my hand. Trying to wake up the brain and guts that stopped working. Finally, through unremitting persistence and hard work, colorful flowers gradually bloomed in my body, and the downcast little puppet on the left (representing the former self) also transformed into a small puppet with wings and a crown on the right (representing the new self) ), and the puppet-shaped “I” on the right holds up a healed “heart”, which also grows branches and blooms beautiful blue roses.
During the creation period, other art forms such as music also gave me a lot of help, and I tried my best to draw my feelings about music and the rhythm and color of the music I heard. (I think you can see from “The Flower of Miracle Healing” that the rhythm of the music is brisk, jazzy, and psychedelic)
This creative process gave me a new understanding. I understand myself, feel myself through painting, and find the balance point for self-growth. I think this is also the evidence that I heal myself a little bit and dedicate “love” to myself.
